Jan 29 ‘01
“I’ll write my epitaph on your mother’s ass.”
-Clyne
March 10 ‘01
fuck the age-old
opium addled poets
I’ve a wreath of scorpions
around my neck
sure, the albatross sits
on my face
but I don’t mind
Verlaine was a puppet
he can sit on my
face
as well
of course I say that
knowing
he’s dead
and what’s left of
his ass
Rimbaud
already
abandoned
March 26 ‘01
I’m in Municipal Court (New Orleans) listening to dozens of people plea before the judge. A coterie of public defenders is floating in front of the bench. They wear cheap ill-fitting blazers (some of these outfits look fifteen years old! Who’d trust a PD dressed like that?).
The judge is a red faced Irishman. About 85% of the defendants are black, several are women (1 white woman, my girlfriend, arrested and sentenced for petty larceny).
April 1 ‘01
I went in to buy my ticket at the place on Park and 42nd. Ticket to LaGuardia to meet Mom and Dad.
Woman outside holding the door open. White middle aged. A bag on wheels behind her. Nervous looking.
“Excuse me,” I said, wanting to go in, she blocking the way.
“Oh! Go ahead!”
And she let go of the door and it shut in my face.
I opened it and went in. Right inside the door is obviously the woman’s husband. He’s blocking the way, talking confusedly with one of the uniformed employees. Another uniformed employee sits in a chair, young Hispanic guy.
I rest my bag while I wait for the husband to move himself and his bags out of the way.
KERPLUNK my bag falls over into the legs of the standing employee.
“Sorry,” I say, picking it up. The husband suddenly realizes he’s in the way so he starts to move.
The seated Hispanic guy says, “Call 1-800-LAWYER if you’ve been injured in an accident.”
“Blood from a stone, man,” I say. “Blood from a stone.”
April 3 ‘01
From Shiva Naipaul’s “Black and White”:
“I was constantly beat over the head with the vision of the future: a fast approaching world crisis of combined nuclear war, starvation, uncontrollable disease, epidemics, crime and violence and the extinction of human life on this planet.”
I remember Jim Jones, 3 Mile Island…
April 7 ‘01
In the studio of WWOZ radio station, New Orleans:
its another jobless
sunday morning
the sun is coming
to me with
the promise
of spring
bring it
bring it on
over the darkened
treeline
as the birds sing
for morning
but I’ve been up
all night
blowing all my money
and the top of my
skull off
and knowing each morning-
like this morning-
I’ll have to say
to hell with it
all over
again
June 7 ‘01
So I figured what the hell and began again…
At 8am, after running out of cigs, I went out to the K-store to buy some more. Circle-K.
8am New Orleans! Esplanade Avenue. After a storm too. Damp and cool. What a marvelous bright morning! Impossible to fully describe.
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